substack and my future (one thing)

Everyone has a substack so 

What do I have to say 

Ive recently gotten a journal so haii 

So I am thinking less about what topics I can write about 

Even though I have a whole list in my notesapp 

“I write and then delete what I have written” 

Today I was thinking about how I have loved every job I have ever had (except lifegaurding) 

So that scares me for the future obviously because what if I’ll never have as much fun as I did running around the sales floor on Black Friday (which is my favorite holiday) (just because it’s so fun to work) 

Or if I never have as much fun as I did in Columbus, Ohio for a week playing on my iPad and on the pool deck 

Or in Federal Way, Washington wiping off the block in my matching purple sweat set 

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about becoming a professor 

Because that sounds like something I can just play around and have fun doing 

Play around is used as a loose term because getting into higher education is a very grueling process and research takes a long time

But in a loose term sense I can stand in front of the lecture hall in ballet flats and chat about something thats super interesting to me all day long so 

What could be better than that